Don't pretend...

After a terribly difficult week, crying so hard in the middle of my kitchen that I thought I never be the same, sheet rock dust mixed with tears, a little bit of bruising and divine intervention in the form of a four day trip to San Francisco, all I have to say is this:

Saving Grace

Take my hand, I know it doesn't seem enough for me to feel it

Understand

That I will never be the one who

Traps us in, I know it doesn't seem enough for us to keep it

Seize the day

When I will always be the one who...

Takes you for a ride and then decides

That it's not right to keep on like this

I will dismiss all the thoughts and feelings

That consume me

From the very start I saw the art

In painting everybody else to be

The savior of the world

You're my saving grace

You're my saving grace

Take my hand

And know that every second is forever

Don't pretend

That I would ever be the one who

Loses faith

In knowing that we'll always be together

Check my pulse

Cause I will always be the one who...

Takes you for a ride and then decides

That it's not right to keep on like this

I will dismiss all the thoughts and feelings

That consume me

From the very start I saw the art

In painting everbody else to be

The savior of the world

You're my saving grace

Stay with me late into this night

Lay with me, and I promise to make you feel...

You're my saving grace

And I'm not gonna lose you

Seriously, that's how I feel.  Lost and conflicted and angry and sad...and yet, pretty content...like I know: somehow, someday down the line, he'll get it.  I just pray that that day comes sooner than later.

Thanks, Crash Kings for making things a little bit better...


j

Something More...

Turns out that you can't take burritos into The Depot, but you CAN take cameras in...  Geez...I HAD to wear my tight skirt...

BIG thanks to Star for taking these pics that she shared with me I stole...

I look manic...and really hot.

Literally.

Crash Kings

I LOVE Mike's Orange amp!

YES we were this close...  (I got even closer for JET!)

I was standing to the left a little, behind the guy in denim.  He smelled like a mix of cotton candy and the Henri Bendel Firewood candle.

It was nice...

The girl next to him, I'll call her "Beth", was excellent.  She came and rocked it alone.

Notice the pics on Mark's mic stand?

Apparently it's REALLY hard to get a good picture of them.

(The guy wearing a JET pass with a camera took about 30 before he shook his head and gave up.)

Way to go Star!!!  (She was also able to snag his set list!)

Also, enjoy Mark's pants and Italian leather Beatle boots and the mic for Chris. 

He sang every 5th song or so.

I LOVE this shot of Nic and Cam.

...and Mr. Security Guard...

Is it weird that I'm SURE that I had prolonged eye contact with Nic more than once?

Nah...It's totally normal, right?!

I also LOVED the old and loved Marshall in the backgound.

(And the keyboard guy with the bedroom eyes...)

Much Love,
j

JET...

& Crash Kings!!!!!

(In tight pants)

It started off with this...




And after an amazing hour of being close enough I could see in their mouths and the outlines of pockets, I got this...




(Without the onstage dancers...)



Seriously, it was one of the best shows I've been to (and that's saying a LOT!)


I didn't get this:



But I really wish I had...  And I kind of wish, I was on my way to Vegas with them...


Much Love,

j